When I'm at my day job I seem to fall behind. Generally, by the time I get home there is not much "juice" left for the other, most enjoyable, parts of my life! It's a blessing to be fortunate enough to have the ability to enjoy a balance of work, work & home work. I have been considering aging a lot lately though - and I have to say that I think it's a great thing - albeit having a bit less agility or litheness is not my most favorite part! I like being where I am in life. I love this time of life in fact! I wish it had not taken so long to get here! At this point in time I can say "whatever" and it really means just that - that I simply don't have the time to waste over smaller details or issues. I think that drama in one's life can be addictive & self-perpetuating. I did it for a time - for too long in fact -and am SO happy to not be in that space any longer. It is a gift to to have no drama. I take great pleasure, when people ask me what's new, to say "nothing"! I have found that by not over reacting to things, they happen as they need to - and everything progresses (or not!) in it's own time. I have found that I love my routines - a word that once struck terror in my core. I love comfort now too, in dress & surroundings, and I have taken perverse delight in throwing out every pair of stiletto heels I owned & donating my very conservative business suits to charity. I go to bed early now and love the extra time that it gives me to read. I am, in fact, finally allowing myself to return to the person I always thought I should be before the concept of climbing the career mountain reared it's rude, fast paced, competitive, empty head.
Things I take the time to enjoy more now:
Listening to snippets of conversations that swirl around me during the day.
Listening to all the different bird songs.
Really stopping to s m e l l the roses.
Believeing that I have the right to relax & enjoy life.
Learning new things with pride.
Taking the time to create something I like personally - that does not, necessarily, meet some one else's criteria or needs .. and to take the time to do it 'right'.
Learning that it really is okay to say "no" - and that it can be said respectfully and nicely.
All this may sound like I am a doffering old lady already - and I am certainly not that yet - what I am becoming at this point, however, is a softer, more considered red headed self- someone who takes the time to enjoy the wonder of living more meaningfully and less hectically. The world can be the most fabulous place to be after all. Namaste.
